Beginning

Standing

On Friday I confided in you, in whoever is out there listening, that I have been running from God for the past 2 years.

And right here I need to stop and I need to tell you something really important- perhaps the most important thing you’ll ever hear me say…

You cannot outrun God.

Trust me. I’ve tried. God loves you and his love will pursue you no matter where you run. He will keep pace with you, no matter how fast your feet move. He will continue to pursue you regardless of what you do to try to get him to stop, you can’t convince him to stop loving you. He loves you too much. No matter how far or how fast you run, you are never more than one step away from God’s love. Promise.

Ironically, as much as I’ve tried to run away from God’s plan for my life I find myself today closer to him than I’ve ever been before. In his pursuit of me he’s pulled me deeper into relationship, deeper into his love. It’s not what I deserve and I am left to sit in the wonder of his mercy. Completely overwhelmed by God’s love.

So here I am, waiting to begin…

Have you ever felt that way? I surrendered. I said yes to God. I accepted his plan and his call. And… Now what?

I confess I’m not really sure what happens next. I have all these words, all these stories, but I’m not sure where to start. My fingers move fast across the page, but it’s a little all over the place.

I’m not sure what will happen with this space. I had plans, but now everything seems different. I think I’m going to have to change my content and I’m worried you won’t like it. Can I ask for your help? Can I ask you to pray for me? Your prayers mean a lot to me. And if you want to connect I’d like that too. You can email me or you can send me a friend request on my personal Facebook profile.

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Finish

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When I was 16 God spoke two things to me. First, that I would have a daughter and her name was Ana. Second, that I was a writer. Not just a writer, but that He would one day ask me to write something specific- my story. And at 16 I was young and my story had barely begun and I thought it would be easy and so I easily said yes. Today I’m twenty years older with twenty years of more story to tell and it doesn’t come easy. I find myself not wanting to share my story. And so I write half truths and pray that it is good enough. And for a long time it was. Last year, my year of surrender, God told me it wasn’t enough. Rather than say yes to what He was asking me to do I started running. And, like Jonah, I ended… [Continue Reading]

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Finding Spiritual Whitespace, Book Review

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This post is part of the  “Finding Spiritual Whitespace Blog Tour” which I am a part of, along with a group of soulful, journeying kindreds. To learn more and join us, CLICK HERE!   It seems like I’m always in pursuit of deeper rest. It’s so hard to just let go of all the many things that need to be done. I too often forget that really I just need to be still. I just need to trust that He is making me enough. Bonnie’s powerful book echo’s what I’ve been saying to myself for months. What I’ve been hearing The Father say… Close your eyes, child.Breathe in. Breathe out.Release your troubled thoughts.Meditate on my promises.For 10 seconds, 5 minutes, or an hour.Come to me to receive your rest. But Bonnie’s book goes way beyond finding rest in the midst of a chaotic lifestyle, Bonnie’s book teaches about finding rest in the midst of… [Continue Reading]

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