{the truth behind the fairy tale}

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Someone once asked if the story in my post {the fairy tale beginning} is a true story. {the fairy tale beginning} is an allegory for events that really happened in my life. Since the question has come up I would like to take a moment to explain the truth behind the allegory.

The quiet princess represents me and the Most High King represents God. According to the Christian faith, which I adhere to and believe to be true, God is the King Most High. He is the ultimate being whom we are all called to worship and serve. Through the death and resurrection of Jesus Christ we all have the opportunity to become adopted children of God. I was 6 when I made the decision to be adopted by God. You can read {my salvation story} if you’re interested.

The dark prince represents a real person too. He was a Christian man whom I became engaged to while in my first year of college. After we became engaged this man became abusive. I believe it is only by God’s grace and mercy that I was able to find my way out of this unhealthy relationship. Like many woman in abusive relationships, I didn’t realize that it was unhealthy until I was already out and looking back at the situation. There wasn’t a real army sent out to rescue me, but I know that there were people who cared about me who were deep in prayer. These people represent the army. Without them I may not have ever known I needed to get out of this relationship. The dark prince started stalking me after I broke off our engagement and so, at my mom’s insistence, I did move back home in order to get away from him.

Once I moved back home I started a relationship with someone I had been good friends with for a long time. This person represents the stable boy in my story. This was a good man; kind, gentle, and sincere. He was an ideal suitor, except that he was not a Christian. I believe that when a Christian marries someone who is not a Christian it is very similar to a princess who decides to marry a stable boy. It’s possible and it seems romantic but, in general, it’s not very practical. As the allegory suggests, I believe God would have still loved me if I had married someone who wasn’t a Christian, but I am certain I would not be able to maintain the kind of relationship I have with God if I had married someone who didn’t understand and fully support my relationship with Him. I believe that as I wrestled through that situation God was there with me, fully engaged in the emotions I felt.

There’s a lot of confusion about why God has established rules for us about things like who we should marry. To us it feels like He’s being close minded and not letting us love who our heart would chose. Having been in the situation I can relate to that feeling. If you continue to read the other parts of the story you’ll get a sense of how heartbroken I was when I realized God was asking me to end the relationship with my stable boy. I was sad when I considered what I was giving up and scared because I had no idea what I was going to end up with in exchange. While I agree, it certainly feels unfair from our perspective, I can assure you that God sees a bigger picture and the rules He gives us are there to serve as handrails to keep us safe and help us find even greater joy.

If there is one thing I have learned, one thing I know for sure, it’s that when your heart is breaking God’s is breaking too- especially if it’s due to something He has required of you. Knowing that brings me great peace. God would not break my heart by asking me to give something up unless it was to give me something even better, even if it doesn’t seem that way at the time I have to make the decision. God can be trusted, He continues to prove that to me on a daily basis.

If you are struggling with something God is asking you to do, something which makes you question His love for you, you are not alone. Every Christian will have a crisis of faith at some point, some of us will have several. The Bible is a wonderful source of hope and promise. There is another book which I also read when I feel unsure of God’s great love for me. The book is Come Away My Beloved by Frances J. Roberts. I’ve never read anything like it, it’s a powerful portrayal of the heart of God.

As for the remainder of my story, you’ll find I’ve continued the allegory at the beginning and end of each additional post. I believe this is what God was feeling as I was trying to come to a conclusion. I believe His perspective is an important part of the story because I believe my story is really just a small part of His larger story. I pray everything in my life will always reflect back glory to Him.

May you know the loving heart of God today,
Jennifer

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